This blog is being discontinued.

Everybody moves once in a while. This is mine. I'm transferring this blog, and all of its posts to Wordpress.com. I find it to be a better built blog site. But I doubt anyone ever reads my posts, so I don't even know why I'm typing this. But if someone really is reading this, http://newdeezy.wordpress.com/ is where my blog posts where reside from now on.

Wow, I guess I made the right move by dropping a class. I finished out my semester with a 3.8 GPA. I am very proud of myself but this is just step one of a long journey. There is still much more that needs to be done before I feel like my life is on a straight course to success. I guess I deserve to celebrate today, but tomorrow I’m getting back to work. The world sleeps for no one. Why should I?

Sometimes I feel like I fail at life. I had everything planned out at one point. I was in a great college and I had my own place in Florida. Nothing could’ve gotten better than that. But I struggled and things didn’t turn out the way they were supposed to. Now I’m living with my father, going to a community college, and can barely find a job. I went totally backwards. I know everybody has setbacks in life and this is just one of them. I know that I should only be thinking positive but I just needed to get this frustration of my chest. My first semester at Prince George’s Community College is over. I feel good about it, but I still think in my head “what if?” What if I was still going to college in Florida? I think my life would have been much better at this point. But whose to know really? I can only make the best of the present.

Even though our relationship has been a bit rocky lately, I still consider my mother my rock. If it wasn’t for her, my life probably wouldn’t have been as fortunate as it has been over so many years. There are times when we have disagreements, but that doesn’t change how much I love her. I’ll never take my life for granted, knowing all of the things you went through to get me here. Paying you back for all of the things you have done for me seems impossible. But I’ll start by saying Happy Mother’s Day.

I everyday I learn more about myself. And today I learned that my future is really open-ended right now. But that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. So many choices and opportunities have returned to me. I just have to make a way for myself.

The most powerful sound I have ever heard in person was not a gunshot, but the roar of a lion. I went to the zoo today and when I arrived at the lions, I was very impressed. All females and the only one male (the king) sitting at the very top of the hill. It was an amazing sight to see really. I would show a picture, but my camera phone doesn’t do it justice. When the area started to get crowded, the king walked down the hill and circled his territory. Then he started to roar. It sounded so amazing. Felt like it echoed through the entire zoo. Even though the lion was in front of me, the roar sounded like it was coming from all directions. That was the sound of pure power and confidence. Impressive.

My best friend always feel the need to go out. It doesn’t matter what day it is, she always wants to go out and do something. And she always wants me to come along with her. I’m honestly not the type of guy to go out all the time. I enjoy staying home, chilling, relaxing, and sleeping. It’s also a waste of my money to go out when I’m not really planning on it. And if I don’t feel like going out, I’m made out as some kind of bad guy? There are just people out there who feel the need to prove that they have a life. I am not one of those people.